The WEIRDEST thing happened tonight!!!!!!! I still can't believe it myself!!! Lately I've felt this presence hanging around. I told you all it was my aunt, but that's cause I didn't want to admit that I don't know who the heck it was. But I knew she was connected to my aunt some how. So I'm talking to my friend KT. I'm telling her about this girl. Then she says maybe it's someone you used to know. And BAM I see the girl, a dark night, slippery road, a car slide off a road, and the word "death." I'm like holy shit!! Then I start thinking...lately the names Madelyn and Madeline have been going through my head and I didn't know why. Like it was supposed to be there but wasn't right.....then I type "Magdelyn" and KT's like I had a friend name Magdelyn who died. She died in a car wreck in 96 etc.....and goes on to explain what I saw. I'm just like holy shit!! And tell KT IT"S HER!! and she's like huh? I said it's her. The girl is Magdelyn. KT describes what she looked like. It's the same girl I've been seeing. Then this stuff starts going through my head. Dec. 19. And I'm like ok....KT when did she die? KT says Dec. 19. Which is also when my aunt died, hence why she's been saying she's connected to my aunt. Then I say May/June. KT thinks for a min. and says that's when we met, and then when we became friends. Then I see "5. 55" over and over. I ask KT's about the number "5". She says Magdelyn's license plate had two 5's in it. I ask if she had a nickname. She says yeah she called me Katty. All this stuff had been going through my head. KT's like omg I'm like omg. So yeah, I was talking to my friend's dead friend tonight. Who's still hanging around. It's the weirdest thing. I still can't believe this happened. And believe me, I didn't ask KT leading ?'s. She was saying exactly what I was seeing. It all matched exactly. Even the fact that Magdelyn was older then her. Freaky stuff man. Freaky. I'm thinking Dec. 19 this year is gonna be interesting..........

From the Naughty Board.....

Twas the night before apocalypse and throughout Sunnydale
Evil creatures were stirring and were sure to prevail
The vampires were hunting for those last little sips
before returning at dawn to their sewers and crypts
The Hell-mouth grew restless and started to yawn
and I feared that my last breath soon would be gone
the demons became joyous, the zombies did clap
with thoughts that us mortals would take the dirt nap

when out in the dark there arose such a noise
tearing the night like the peace it destroys
I peeked out my window as I crouched on the floor
and wished I had listened and nailed shut my door
the moon looked sick with its glow bloody red
but it lighted enough to see things as they feed
then the last that I saw as my tears started to flow
was a miniature Slayer with 6 scoobies in tow

with a low cut halter and her lewd behavior
I knew in a flash it was Buffy my savior
more vapid than stooges her gang they came
and she screamed and yelled and called them by name
"look out Xander! Now Willow! Duck William the Bloody!
Run Anya! Ow Giles! Please Dawny, be a quick study!
Off with their heads! We'll make the scum crawl!
Now slash away! Slash away! Death to them all!"

And then with a shivering I heard from my cellar
the mewing and scampering of some little queller
I gathered my courage at least all that I found
then jumped out the window to the Slayer and ground
She was dressed in black leather from her head to her tail
her hair and her make-up perfect in every detail
A crossbow and stakes she carried in her sack
She looked like a psycho that just smoked some crack
Her eyes - - how they menaced! Her legs how they kicked
her fists were like puppies her victims they licked.

I ran to her side, circled arms round her belly
and didn't even noticed how her sweat made her smelly
She loosened my arms and hurled me towards the beasts
like a gifty wrapped present for their unholy feasts
I thought she was crazy or at least had gone nuts
but I heard her exclaim, as they tore out my guts
"I hope that you die you sick little fucker
and that goes even double for your big brother tucker"

Kate sent me this..

WEB ADDICTION HOLIDAY SING ALONG!

(Sung to the tune of "Winter Wonderland")

Doorbell rings, I'm not list'nin',
From my mouth, drool is glist'nin',
I'm happy -- although
My boss let me go --
Happily addicted to the Web.
All night long, I sit clicking,
Unaware time is ticking,
There's beard on my cheek,
Same clothes for a week,
Happily addicted to the Web!

Friends come by; they shake me, Saying, "Yo, man!
Don't you know tonight's the senior prom?"
With a listless shrug, I mutter "No, man;
I just discovered laugh-a-lot-dot-com!"
I don't phone, don't send faxes,
Don't go out, don't pay taxes,
Who cares if someday
They drag me away?
I'm happily addicted to the Web!

Happ-ilyyyyy, ad-dict-eeeed to the Weeeeeb!!! (Yeah!)

What you feel is what you are and what you are is beautiful.


You painted up your secrets with the lies they told to you The least they ever gave you was the most you ever knew You wonder where dreams go when the world gets in your way What's the point in all this screaming? No one's listening anyway Your voice is small and fading and you're hiding in your room Your mother loves your father cause she's got no where to go She wonders where these dreams go cause the world got in her way What's the point in ever trying Nothing's changing anyway They press their lips against you and you love the lies they share They tried so hard to reach you but you're falling anyway You know I see right through you cause the world gets in your way What's the point in all this screaming no one's listening anyway...


Broadway is dark tonight. A little bit weaker then you used to be. Broadway is dark tonight. See the young man sittin in the old man's bar waitin for his turn to die. The cowboy killed the rock star and Friday night's gone too far the dim light hides the years on all the faded girls. Forgotten but not gone. You drink it off your mind you talk about the world like it's someplace that you've been. You'd love to run home but you know you ain't got one cause you're livin in a world where you're best forgotten around here. Broadway is dark tonight. A little bit weaker then you used to be. Broadway is dark tonight. See the young man sittin in the old man's bar waitin for his turn to die. You choke down all your anger forget your only son you pray to statues when you sober up for fun. Your anger don't impress me. The world slapped in your face. It always rains like hell on the loser's day parade. When you're think your a joke and you think nobody will listen to the one small point I know they've been missin around here.


Let's pretend my January friend.


You've gotta bear your cross and never dream too loud. Realize your crime.


Are you alive? Am I gone? Is it too late to call and tell you to be strong? Was the poison in our blood there all along? Am I gone? Heavenly intoxication. Ain't it funny how a life can take a turn when the end is near? Is it too late to face the truth that it was wrong? Am I gone? I ain't wishin for a miracle that miracle's gone wrong. It's too strong. Am I gone?


I've had to fight. Waiting for the light of day. It will never come.

I know that you are going through a hard time at the moment. Life can be torture, depressing, long, difficult. However, I know all this. You dont have to put on a brave face for me. I've been here the whole time, remember?~Tara

From a conversation with Leelee:
"Lesbians taste like chicken."
"The happy white pony tastes like sperm."
"One two three light like a birdy four five six you fuck like a girly."
"The elephant tastes like....crank?"
"Lawn gnomes taste like rubber cement."
"Hamsters taste like elmer's glue."
"Get a shoebox and go long."

Yes, we are nuts. But it's just so damn furkin funny!
I got a call tonight from my friend Jen. I haven't talked to her since this summer. It was great to hear from her and talk for hours. Course the whole time Leelee was like "can I call yet?." hehe it's great to be fought over. Needless to say, soon as I got off the phone with Jen, Leelee called so I didn't get much work done tonight. Oopss...means I got alot to do tommarow. 'Specially studying for my 105 final on Wed....something I haven't started doing yet.... Bad me. I go home in less than a week. Yay. Fun. Happy thought. Not.
I'm still working on my PR campaign. It's tons of work, but even more fun. Hopefully I'll get a good grade on it. And on my finals... Anyway, back to work. So here's Faith, wishing you a good night good dreams and a happy Tuesday, signing off.